I have really be struggling lately and I realize that moms don't get the chance to be sad. Maybe that is a good thing. So we don't focus on sad things like brushing Myla's hair today and seeing clumps of hair coming out. Or being so scared of the thought of a new baby coming and not knowing how sick Myla will be. How will I take care of a new born, a sick child, three other children and the house is beyond me. I believe that things will work out ok. That Myla will one day grow out of this, that my house will live through not being clean, and everything else that happens in between we will make it through. But I am still scared. I am still sad and it still makes me cry.
Today this mommy is not so strong.
OK really I know that there are people that have it a lot worse than me and I am grateful that things are not worse. Sometimes it just helps to get my feelings out. So sorry for the complaining.