I came from a split family. My real dad left my mom when I was two and never really turned back. When I was ten my mom and step dad sat my sister and I down and said they had something to talk to us about. At that time I was searching my mind trying to remember what I did that I was about to get into trouble about. Do you remember that feeling as a kid when you know you are about to get into trouble? I hate that feeling! Anyway to my relief my mom said that my real dad called and whats to see us. I was just relieved that I was not in trouble. I like to make people happy and I do not like being told that I did something wrong. Yeah I'm still working on that one!
A few weeks later we drove to Utah to see him. I was fine until I was about 20 minutes from his house. I thought I was going to throw up and was really scared. Long story short, the visit went fine a little awkward since I did not know him but it was fine. I saw him two more times over the next six years. Since than I have not seen or heard from him at all.
On Sunday Kirk had this dream and he kept getting the feeling that I needed to call my dad. I had heard he moved back to Utah but I was not sure and did not have his number. After Kirk kept mentioning it I got his number from my uncle but I could not bring myself to call him.
I did not know this person or what kind of life he was living and I was afraid of that. What would I say to him. Hi, this is Tiffany...... your daughter. Remember me?
OK now I am just rambling. I finally brought myself to call him today and it was a little awkward for both of us I think. He told me his wife of 15 years just passed away in May and he has felt very alone since then. Maybe that is why Kirk got this feeling that I should call him.
Sometimes Heavenly Father goes through other people if we are not willing to hear the message. As I am writing this I realized that this year I have thought about him a few times and wondered where he was and why he has never tried to call us. Ummm maybe that was my prompting and I was not willing to listen. Bummer. I did today.
I do not know if he will ever call me again or if he will ever meet my kids but I do feel good that I called him. Kirk was right (first time, ha ha).